Better Day

Much better day today. I'm okay with Mike not being here now. Not really "OK" with it, but not crying my eyes out anymore either. The way I see it...the clock is ticking now and I'm one day closer to having him home. I know it's 365 days from now, but it was 15 months when this whole mess started. I'm hoping to stay pretty busy from now on and not dwell on the calendar. The only thing that I find myself doing is jumping when the phone rings and checking my email ALL THE TIME.
The girls and I are heading to Myrtle Beach tomorrow for spring break. Gramma and Grampa are meeting us there so at least I'll have some help with the girls.
Looking forward to hearing from Mike as soon as possible.

Let the CountDown Begin

Mike is leaving for Afghanistan tonight. He gave his cell phone to Scott so now I'm at his mercy as far as a phone call. He is at the mercy of everyone else as to whether or not he can borrow their cell phone. I have cried again most of the day. I even cried at the chiropractor's office today. I simply can't stop once I get started.
At least he'll be home in July I hope. That's the plan today anyway.
I just hope Mike knows how very much I love him. I don't think he does. I'm not sure I even knew until this happened. I mean, I have always loved him, guess I just took him for granted up until now. Now I miss him so much that I ache.
I'm a bundle of several different emotions right now. I'm swinging from one emotion to another, but mostly I just miss Mike.
I really hope I get a chance to talk to him tonight. If not tonight-then I don't know when I'll talk to him again.

Farah Deployment

Mike is leaving tomorrow for his year away from us. I'm so sad and depressed I can barely function right now. Thank God the girls are doing fine. They don't really understand where he's going and how long it will be before we see him again. On the other hand, I would prefer to crawl in a hole and have someone wake me up when it's over.